Monday, August 13, 2007

CANCER YOU SUCK ASS!!!

And yes I'm yelling. I hate you I really do!!

I hate that you took away my Grandfather!
I hate that you took away my Uncle!
I hate that you are going to take away my Aunt's friend!
I hate that you pick no favorites young/old/male/female!
I hate that you are in this world!


I hate that one of my BFF's is so sick with fighting you that she can't come to the phone.

I hate that your going to make her hair fall out to get rid of you!

I hate that there already has been days when you have made her want to give up.

I hate that you have torn her family apart, leaving her younger children wondering where Mommy is and her older ones knowing all to well where she is!

I hate that her husband is so torn he doesn't know where to go? To the kids, to his wife, to work? Since unfortunately money doesn't grow on trees and while his wife is sick there are still bills to pay.

I hate that you have struck and I am so damn far away I CAN'T help!!!

Yes dear internet I am angry, I'm mad as hell! I had been in Winnipeg for all of 36 hours and I phone one of my BFF's Jennifer, who had JUST been out to visit with her family and we were excited to get to see each other again in a few weeks. I was not expecting to hear when I phoned her house that the day before she gotten the dx of Acute Promyelocytic Leukemia, herein after referred to as APL (since I don't want to be too crude but at this moment that fucking APL comes to mind). To say I was shocked was an understatement, to say they were shocked was an even bigger understatement! By the time I left Winnipeg (which was really hard) she had almost finished a 7 day course of chemotherapy, she was trying to figure what to do with her hair? shave it before it started to fall out? She was battling with the fact that she won't be taking one of her DD's Cierra to get back to school clothes or school supplies. She was battling with a sore mouth that was not letting anything pass thru comfortably. She well was just battling for her life.

Things were thrown at her (them) so fast before they had time to settle down she was already hooked up to bags of "poison" as she calls it. There is talk of her going the Naturopath way (which scares the hell out of me), the only reason she even started chemo was that the Dr her mother sees for Naturopath was away for 2 weeks and the Dr's at the hospital said that she didn't have that time to WAIT!

Did I mention that Jennifers mother was dx a year ago with terminal lung cancer, she is doing the Naturopath treatments because they couldn't do anything else for her. She has lived 6 months longer than they told her and still is doing well.

But I guess for me it is ignorance is bliss I do not know much about Naturopath. It just scares the hell out of me when Jennifer talks of doing that instead of chemo, I mean she has 4 kids and a husband, family and friends. But I digress, this is not about me it is about how CANCER SUCKS ASS!!!

This is all I can muster up about this right now.

7 comments:

chelle said...

I am so sorry that you and your friend are going through this. I can only imagine how hard it must be to be so far away. I would be heart broken if I could not be there for a friend. HUGS!

A, B & C said...

I'm SOOO SORRY about your best friend and sorry you can't be there for you. Let her know she has even more prayers from all of us! I know it must have been hard to leave.

Overwhelmed! said...

Jacquie, I'm so very sorry to hear that your friends is going through this! I'll be offering up a prayer for her and her family!

Linlee said...

You're in my thoughts and prayers. HUGS!

wendster said...

Amen and amen. Another message to enjoy life RIGHT NOW because none of us know what tomorrow will bring. EVERYTHING can change in just one day. Hey, I have a blog for you. My friend Connie survived breast cancer three years ago (it was diagnosed as terminal) and survived a prognosis of TERMINAL (dead in two months) bone and lung cancer this year. She was supposed to be dead in February, but she is back home and going strong. She uses a combination of stuff, I believe including naturopathy ... amazing hospital in Chicago? she goes to? Gosh, I have to ask her again. I only know her through e mail. She wants to help others get through having "the c word" ... we don't even say it so I KNOW she would love to help your friend too. Be right back.

wendster said...

http://connieiamasurvivor.blogspot.com/ This is her blog spot ... she's new to blogging and out living life every day, so she isn't a frequent blogger at all, but she's a GREAT GREAT LADY. Check out her blog. Has a reference you can click on with great resources. I just said a prayer for your friend and for everyone who is battling cancer today. Let's all mention it in our prayers each day. Prayers help! I really believe that.

Lisa said...

I just lost a friend to cancer too. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm sorry she's going through this too.